At this point of my life im feeling empty, lonely, sad and obscure. feeling of being alone... it is because one important person in my life has gone, he is my brother who passed away 5 months ago. Its been 5 months ago passed by when my brother Aegel Christian Cruz has died at the age of 26. Its was last July 19, 2009 it is a Sunday afternoon that the shocking and very sad news had been told to us. It was monday morning when he was brought up to the hospital until then he is in great comma. As days passes by bad signs and series of seizures had been going, no signs of improvement either. That's why the doctor's done series of tests for some reasons to detect what happend and why it has been happening. But I know that my brother is fighting for his life beacause he is in great comma for a week.My brother wants to live but what can we do if it his time already...We can do nothing but to accept that he is gone and he is with HIM already. although im feeling empty for sometime. specially when im having difficult time, i always missed him so much.
What are the things I missed most with my brother?
There are lots of things I missed doiong w/ my brother like chatting into the NET, laughing w/ him, cracking jokes w/ him and his wife, making faces when we are chatting through YM and MSN. talkng about problems we've been going thru, Happy times, sad ones, jobs/work, latest gadgets, latest issues in our lives, love life, latest gadget we have to share, latest news. to make the story short all of the stuff and anything under the sun we are interested to talk about. I also missed those younger years we are like cats and dogs, we always fight, hahahaha "a Child fight" like petty things, smalls things specially toys, shirts, candies and the like.
Sigh (a deep sigh) how I really missed my brother so much....He really being missed a lot. How i wished i could see him and talk to him for a while even for an hour or more. I wish i can go to his place and pay for a visit so we can do the stuff we used to do when he is w/ us.
As seconds, days, weeks, months passes by the more i really misses my brother and the more for me to accept the truth that he is not w/ me. The more for me to accept that he is GONE, the more for me to accept that I cant talk, touch, embrace him if i want to, i cant tell him the things i am going thru... Its hard for me to accept that he is GONE... i miss you bro so much... i wish you are here right now at my side... i wish you see me and knows the things im going thru....I LOVE YOU BRO... If you have time visit me in my dreams how i love to talk to you.....
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